Dear God,

So I always tell my kids when they pray that they aren't writing a letter, so instead of starting their prayers with Dear God, they usually start with something like, thank you God for today, or something like that.  Today I thought I'd actually write a letter to God here on my blog.  Seeing as God is omnipresent and omniscient I think He will get it.

Dear God,

I love you.  I feel like I always have, although I haven't always shown it.  I'm having a hard time down here.  I'm guessing that has to do with me not with You.  But it doesn't change the fact that I'm a mess.  I'm getting old, feeling old, I'm poor, weak, I have anxiety, and I'm trying to walk in faith when sometimes that feels like I'm walking in the dark.

Where are you?  Are you with me?  Maybe the better question is, "Am I with you?".

I'm tired.  I need your strength.  I need your help.  I need to feel you show up.  I need to know you're there.  Is that my lack of faith showing.  Well I am pathetic.  You know that.  So would you help my faith be more faithful?

You are the God of the Universe.  If that's not true, none of this matters.  But I believe You.  I believe You are Holy, Awesome, Majestic, and Powerful.  I believe You are able to do anything You have set your mind to do.  Please Do Your work in me.  Please let that work be so evident that people will have to say, "Only God could do that!".  Please.  And when You do, I will point to You.  I will make sure people know it's You, and definitely not me.  Please.

This is my cry, literally me crying out to You.

I love you,

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